Time is forging ahead, as it does, and the earth now begins to wake from its winter slumber. So, too, may we find ourselves beginning to thaw, ready to engage with life with renewed energy and inspiration. Feeling into more light and longer days, we may finally feel ready to step into the possibilities that this year holds.
Still your being for a moment, close your eyes, drop into your body. Envision the portal of these next three months: the blooming and verdant expressions of spring, the quality of light, the temperature and atmospheric tone. The colors, the smells; your outfits, your activities; everything that is possible in the unwritten.
How do you want to feel in this three month stretch of time?
What are you ready to become?
As our bodies and energy systems revive with the earth, we may find ourselves expanding and growing while also being confronted by familiar patterns and roadblocks. We are all waking up, which is never an easy process.
While making choices and doing the work to create more peaceful, centered, expansive, and/or joyful states within ourselves and our lives, we may falter. Our systems might resist or protest. This happens for two primary reasons: 1) our experiences of those states may be limited or fleeting, so they feel foreign to our systems and therefore unsafe, and 2) we can be—often subconsciously—very attached to our pain, comfortable in our familiar suffering, and don't know who we would be without it. We feel fearful, untrusting, and perhaps can't even comprehend a version of ourselves that is truly content, expansive, and free.
There is also often fear in moving towards that version of self because there is both risk and responsibility in it. To say yes to life. To let ourselves be seen. To let ourselves actually have what we want. In a seemingly antithetical way, that can be absolutely terrifying.
I read a beautiful passage this past week by author Briana Wiest, which articulated so eloquently this uniquely human tension:
"When you sit quietly with nature, you start to notice the patterns and rhythms through which all alive things move. Then you begin to realize that nature is also your own.
"But the one thing you and nature do not have in common is that nature, unaware of itself, does not have the capacity to resist its own growth. It adapts, it moves, it regenerates, it flows, it finds the path of least resistance, it goes there. You, however, can choose to use your life force as you please. While we reside in bodies that seem to seek pleasure in repetition of patterns, projection, falsehoods, and fear...we need constant reminders to not fall asleep to our own lives."
The patterns and pains we loop in are not here to punish us. They are here to teach us. And it is our task—and our opportunity—to let them. To hear what they have to say and slowly, with consciousness and effort and time, alchemize them into wisdom and new ways of being. In order for this to happen, we need to become comfortable with our self-conceptions changing. And we need to show our bodies it is safe to hold a bigger life.
As we sit on the cusp of springtime, I offer these questions for reflection:
• How do I want to feel over the next three months?
• What do I need to release (limiting beliefs; behaviors; nervous system states) in order to make room for this?
• What are 1-3 small things I can do, create, or implement to support my desired feeling states?
• What can I add to my life in service of curiosity, creativity, and/or play?
Sending you all love as we continue to unfurl, integrate, and generate the next versions of ourselves .
